This Boy Though.

Well, so far this blog is turning out to be almost completely focused on Anthony. Can you blame me though? ;)

(07/16/15) He ended up not coming down to play games with us before Frisbee last Thursday, but we met him over at the park early. I made S'more Bars for Rachel, Steven and Anthony and we sat around and munched on those while we chatted. The boys devoured them! He gave me a side hug when I first saw him and he apologized for not making it over early enough to play games and told me we would have to reschedule a game night with them. I was a little shy around everyone but I don't think he minded too much. When everyone else arrived to play, I thankfully stayed and talked with Rachel while holding her adorable baby. He at first didn't go down to play, and I told him that he could go and play Frisbee. He said he felt bad for leaving us up on the top of the hill all alone, to which I replied, don't you worry, Rachel and I could talk for hours, plus there is a baby, we are good. He laughed and finally went down to play. He looked up at us quite a few times while he was playing.

Rachel told me that he talked with them about me and said he really enjoyed talking with me and that he really likes me. Hooray! She also said it was his idea to have a game night and that he wanted to spend more time with me. It was so wonderful to sit and chat with her and her beautiful baby was a treat to hold. Well, she did spit up on me three times, 2 of those were projectile vomit like spit up. Poor girl, she wasn't feeling very well. It didn't bother me at all, honestly. It is practically just milk right?

After they finished playing Frisbee, Anthony came up and chatted with us for a little bit. He was about to leave and it looked like he was hesitating to get up, especially after I wasn't also getting up. He said said a few times that he was looking forward to our date tomorrow and I told him I was too. He then started to leave and told me that he would have given me a hug but he was really sweaty from running around so much. I jumped up and told him that I didn't mind, plus I was covered in spit up so fair is fair. He laughed and we awkwardly hugged each other in front of everyone. I guess I was nervous and so was he. I am so glad he invited me though!

The next day (06/18/15), my Mom let me know that she had extra tickets to the concert, so it turned out that I didn't have to pick them up from a random stranger. I went to his house and left my car at his place. I heard about his Senior project that he is currently working on and he asked me about school and work. I feel inferior speaking around him, not because he is demeaning or anything, he is just really good at articulating his thoughts but I, however, stumble and talk in circles when telling him my stories and input. I have a really hard time telling people my feelings, hopes and dreams without feeling foolish or passive. Regardless of my own flaws with language, I really enjoy talking with him. He is gentle, kind, thoughtful, considerate and very intelligent. I really love his company.

He took me to Kneaders and then went to the concert. We ran into my old roommate Lauren and her Fiance. As soon as we got inside, he needed to run and use the restroom before the concert started. I checked my phone and Bethany and Jacob had just seen Lauren right after us and they wanted to meet up with us after the concert. Anthony was up for it and we walked around temple square while we waited to meet up with them. Before I get ahead of myself though, he did not hold my hand during the concert, which was actually totally fine with me. He did lean against my arm and leaned into it. He also had his leg touch mine while we were sitting there and I could tell he was a little more fidgety with his hands. I kept my hand available for a lot of the evening and maybe it was just me but I think he wanted to hold my hand but didn't.

We met up with Bethany and Jacob and we were on our way to find ice cream when we ran into Bethany's aunt, Mary Summerhayes and her husband. She told Anthony and I that we looked like each other and that we matched....a little awkward when we aren't really officially dating, but it was sweet of them nonetheless. We then found out that all the food places at City Creek had closed at 10. Brilliant Bethany decided that we should instead post-pone getting ice-cream and we rescheduled to get ice-cream with them on a double date in two weeks. Anthony seemed to be all for it. :)

We got slightly lost on our back to his car but I didn't mind at all because that just meant more time with him. As we were trying to find his car he thanked me for coming and that he felt like he didn't do very much for the date. I thanked him back and let him know that the only thing I really did was get the tickets and drive to his place. He had the initial idea for the date, took me to dinner and he drove around Salt Lake. He told me that I was just being sweet about it...and then hugged me from the side. We finally found his car and when we got back to his house we chatted outside for another 10-15 minutes while petting one of his cats. We hugged and as I drove off he held his cat and had it wave goodbye.

He also said that Steven and Rachel were going to see Ant Man on Tuesday evening and that he would love it if I came. I wasn't sure what we were doing with my sister Callie that evening (she is leaving to go to the MTC on Wednesday!) but I would let him know. After chatting with Callie about it I will be just fine to go to the movie and still be there on time to see Callie be set-apart as a missionary later that evening.

Things are going really well and I hope they continue to progress and flourish. I really like him and I keep having the feeling that this could actually go somewhere. I am trying not to think that far in advance but what can I say? He is amazing. I had a dream on Thursday night where I was with Anthony in a small courtyard in an apartment complex. We entered into our new home which was a joint apartment with his sister. I had a new born baby girl in my arms and felt so incredibly happy. I knew I was married to Anthony and that the baby was ours. In my dream he was a wonderful loving father and husband. I know it that it might not mean anything and that it could have just been the effects of the Slurpee I bought with Rachel. But, there is a small hope that the dream could be real one day. It seemed so real and powerful but it is probably too early on to even think of such things. I can't wait to be a wife and a mother one day and to be married to a man who honors his priesthood and loves me with all of his heart. I am hopeful that the life I crave is coming soon. I have never been career driven because I have always wanted to be a mom. It is part of my divine nature to want and hope for marriage and a family. I know the Lord is preparing me for those roles and that he will not deny me any of my righteous desires.